Home alone

Well Tina is and has been off at annual conference all this week in Lakeside OH. So I have been left at home alone to fend for myself the last 6 days. A lot of people might really enjoy that fact, being able to watch TV without somebody asking, “are you really going to watch that?” “Is that sports on my TV?” The fact that you can do whatever you would like to do, or eat whatever you want to eat at whatever time. Well being a geographical bachelor is not what it used to be. I remember when I probably would have look forward to this and I did. But I just want to say I really miss my wife. I just seem to bounce around from room to room, from inside to outside, but nothing seems to fill me. I’ve been reading the bible as well as books and it helps, but I can’t concentrate on the material. Now it is not like I don’t get to talk to her because we have talked on the phone every day. But you know what I really miss; it is her presence, her aroma, her looking at me. I just flat out miss her!!! That is how you know you really love someone, because the first day it wasn’t too bad, I had the Cavs to watch Sunday night. But when I got up the next morning she was not there and then I really knew when I came home for work and she wasn’t there and the house each day since has gotten larger, but smaller if you know what I mean or even if that makes any sense. And it is not that I miss her because I have to cook for myself or clean up after myself. But just the trivial, how was your day conversations weren’t there. The glances I get when I change the station even though she was not even paying any attention to what was on. Tina I love you and I do miss you very much. I cannot wait till later tomorrow afternoon when you will get home.
Even though I have been home alone the house is still standing and it is pretty much clean. But I do know that at some point when we get through a lot of this traveling for training and school. We need to get a dog; at least then when I am home and Tina is gone I will have the dog to look at me and to need me and love on me.
May God bless you and take care of you all. Please pray for traveling mercies for Tina, Carol, Dan, Ann, and the boys as they head home tomorrow as well as all those leaving the conference.